H.O.L.I.D.A.Y!

Hello it's the holidays. I went out yesterday, had a taste of what the materialistic world wanted me to buy, I shrank back in fear. SIGH. The commercialised christmas that makes you think you can celebrate christmas like you're in america doesn't help either.

So while going out with friends is fun fun fun, it always involves a lot of moolah. Which I don't have, and when you're running low, it's no fun fun fun anymore. Besides, I want to use the money for other things, like.....

RESOURCES for my art and craft projects.. COS THIS MONTH IS ART MONTH.

Yes I will try my hand at it. :D:D:D
So instead of onitsuka tiger (:( but they have such nice desings this season! and my old nikes are falling apart), shootsac (hello 50% off! but then again i only have one lens now. should save up for that instead, audiotechnica (they have this super cute button headphones!!! :( sennheiser is better but not as aesthetically cool), and *insert clothes brand here* getting my money, artfriend shall benefit instead!:)

hrm. yeah so I hope I have a productive month, besides dealing with acapella stuff, hall trainings, I will go to the library more, read in cafes more, with minimum expenditure of course, visit art galleries/museums, take pictures in the quaintest parts of singapore, late night drive-bys...

maybe some volunteerting too? so inward my planned activities are.

anyways, I wish i had a nice house to slack in, cos staying here in drabby hall makes you wanna get out. but that'll cost money.
i was looking at the service apartments while waiting for the bus at orchard and i realy wanted to be in a comfy hotel-ish bed with thick fluffy comforter and maroon coloured-walls that looks so luxurious under the incandescent lighting. sigh..

Today must be a turning point. It has to be.

Today was the mother of all papers. (Is that even right? I'm too tired to think it out).

It came to this. I sit there, I recognize the reagents from my (last minute, but slow, cos I really tried to understand and not cram) revision, but could not remember what reactions are they.


I sat there thinking, "Is this a mental block?" I stopped, I prayed. I didn't feel that tensed. But I really think I needed to go through those reactions over and over again, write it down, figure it in and out, to actually remember them.

I've never felt so defeated, it's not final exams, but it feels like it. So it's different when you can't do any questions in a test and when you can't do any questions in the final exam. I thought of walking out, cos it was like every question was ....

Why am I talking about it. Ergh

anyways, I did cry, but for different reasons. I'm quite okay about taking this module again. I mean after going through the revision for it, if I get it right it's okay.

The day ended well, after the tears was tuition. hahaha. that's not the "well" part. My old hostel has Wii for the residents now! SO NOT FAIR. After I left, they got a fantastic caterer, a gym, a nice tv lounge with aircon and a 60-inch tv screen, and now Wii, and after mentioning they should get Rock Band, they said it will be under next year's budget!! What!!! I would go back to stay in a heartbeat if I had my friends there with me:(

11th floor *dig nose!* haha deb...

Thereafter, as I as potato-ing in front of the tv, vicky ho my wonderful wonderful cell leader called! She brought toffee nut coffee and caramelised hazelnut chocolate chip muffin. I'm only specifying it cos only got to know a lot of starbuck afficiendos out there.

Anyways, it was good, good in a different way cos the people we met were older, so in a way mature, something I need a reminder to strive towards. No unneccessary groaning of tests, you realised what a silly neurotic year one you can be.

I wish, that in this life, I could just drop everything and go explore doing art, taking photos, making cool stuff, paint, mould, draw, drape, go to florence, find music that touches that part of your being.

That i don't have to worry about consequences that may never happen at all.


(This post is crap and a lot of extra redundant stuff, but it isn't impt enough to edit. So enjoy:) )

I am, therefore I eat

Look at your iTunes list, use name of songs that describe your condition now in one paragraph:

Time is running out (Muse), I have exactly one week (barenaked ladies) to Murder 101 (the wallflowers). Literally. Everything is average nowadays (Kaiser Chiefs), especially my grades, which may be even less than average. I get knocked down (Smashmouth) unto my bed everday, I am so tired. Must be the Three flights of stairs (Yellowcard) I have to climb up everday. November has come (Gorillaz), and for once I am glad it has. This semester has been a Supermassive Black Hole (Muse). Everything has been Over My Head (The Fray). But but, Better Days Are Coming (The Goo Goo Dolls). I really am looking forward to Inter-Hall Games.

Heute

Today German tutorial went pretty well.
I actually read well, formed sentences well, the tutor was saying Gut! Instead of just Ya or Genauso.

:) maybe watching GNTM really helps.

Stressed about receiving calls now. Eeeps.