Something

To try to say how much goodness I've seen from God
His mercy forgiveness
Everlasting and Unconditional Love
To try to say what I've experienced from Him
To have seen a little of his beauty

Which may sound like what many have been saying and will say
To have read these words that describe Him over and over again

it is new to me. Surprising although I "know" what He will do.

:(

I'm so sick and fed up. I wish I was sicker so I can take an MC and not have to sit for my papers. But all that trouble to avoid something that if done badly the worst is a scolding. (Or maybe a bad impression on admission officers)

:(

My small little maths journal is like a mountain I have to climb. Two of them in fact.

not forgetting chem and bio.

:'(

Haha

Fo' shizzle mah drizzle

(from noisebot , full of cool shirts!)

Fo shizzle mah drizzle (For sure my drizzle),
you are the most beautiful today.
the grace in which you fell,
was like the rustle of a lady entering a room discreetly
the sun still shone,
and a small breeze still played.
why I write such nonsensical poems about you,
I don't know.

but you were really beautiful. One of the best I've seen of you.

But now, in the darkness marking the coming of your bigger sister,
I have only the company of my bland potato soup, while my parents and brother enjoy dim sum without me. :'(

HAHA MY DAD IS LISTENING TO SOUND OF MUSIC

(this is for saying "haha" when I couldnt eat chocolates (which he finishes in one chomp)cos I had brushed my teeth and tommorow I'll be on detox) ngeh.


So for dinner we had nice bloody rib-eye steak. Erm. yeah. So I put on nice music. The only thing missing was the wine, i mean, sparkling juice. (man where is the cross out/dashed effect)

So, as I was saying, I put on nice music. And nice music we have blah blah dotti(?) blah blah il(l) divo blah blah classical stuff blah blah britney spears nsync (! haha mine) blah blah sound of music...

Now, I'm not a BIG fan but dont know why something compelled me/I was in the mood for some songs sung from austrian hill tops. (wow did you notice that "sss" alliteration. lets analyze that. now "sss" is sinister or light ot carefree(RC interrupts, "no I dont think so..") okay I give up. whatever)

anyways, to not digress (again), oh those songs sure bring back memories! I still remember we watched it in our old connaught house. (where we also watched this scary version of hansel and gretel. thats the one with the witch's candy house right?) yup. those were the carefree days. (see I told you the "sss" alliteration had significance!)

I particularly liked the song "sixteen going on seventeen". Rather, I liked the romanticism of it. I remember the scence with her leaving the dining table drinking from a wine glass (oh how sophisticated!) and then meeting that young gentleman *coughcoughstupidass* (he did betray them in the end) at the pavillion. and her leaping in ther blue/green dress round and round in it. Oh I wish I had that same experience when i was 16 going on 17. Now I'm 19(!!!) going on 20. sob sob. The closest was last year at Dalat (Vietnam) where there were pretty pavillions ("p" allitereation!) at anh's resort. But alas, no green ( i tend to rememeber it as green) dress and it was too dark and worse I was already 18. sigh.

anyways, I think I like that movie. One of the FEW musicals I can tahan. (the other is CATS). I like the running away part too. soooo exciting. ooh torchlight against gravestones! and the kids hanging from trees. (always wanted to climb trees, the closest was in us in the apple orchard. but those trees are puny in comparison)

Anyways, Iwant to watch sound of music again! but that can be done AFTER IB. (God save us all. really, I'm not sayign it in jest.)

Detox

remember this?

I"m going to have to do it again!=(
to cure my lethargicness/lethargicity.

Quick one

So I"m suppose to study.

Deborah chua lihui! Something for you.

With your cupcakes and fatfood,
you offer without a second thought,
the first of course was of me:) (lol)
gestures like that
that are second nature to you,
makes it all the more touching.
Thank you!

Haha okay that was stupid. but i meant it okay! thanks for all the silly stuff you do to make us laugh. Seriously, 11th floor without you would be dead. (11th FLOOR! *dig nose* lol)
thanks for the clothes, food, studying time, waking me up, erm and the other therapeutic stuff;). Thanks for being fervent for the Lord too as it is great encouragement for me too.

Love yeah Ti-Bo-La!

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Oh yeah read this in my bio textbook-
ahem.
"Humans don't have a chemical that attracts males to ovulating females (thank goodness for that! if not so embarassing). On the contrary, the human female seems to be programmed to hide ovulation, chemically as well as anatomically. In this way, she induces the male- who can't be sure when she is fertile- to remain in attendance for long periods. (So what we call love has a subtle biological basis!) But clearly some kinds of chemical signaling go on between men and women. For instance, chemicals in the armpit of a male can apparently regularize a female companion's ovulatory cycle. "
- Biology : Concepts and Connections (campbell)

Now, I dont know about the regulating part, but coming into my class after PE sure did something to my ovulatory cycle! no wonder I've been so pmsey the past one and a half years.

** erm okay. actually no. I've been pmsey all my life, no ever since i got it lah. But couldnt resist typing that.
erm okay-_-. realise its quite stupid. anyways, i wish the stuff they write before each chapter came out for exams instead of the chunk of the chapter. so much more interesting.

The Iron Wall

now, if you had bothered to read my profile, (which has pass a 100 mark, and I'm proud to say it has moved beyond 33 which it was stuck at for the longest time, i think)

Anways, you would have read that my favourite books are by chaim potok, which mok yuen teng introduced me to, although in a weird way. Anyways, he is a jewish writer and one of the books i read was about the struggle for Israel, as in as Zion. So after reading that, I have had an interest inthis issue. And reading Gaza Bank in the headlines was not something to turn the page as before.

However, there was this dvd lying in the house called "the iron wall". Since there was no more cable (!!!!!), I took this to watch while my hair was still wet. it is directed by a palestinian, and basically its about jewish settlers who are violent in getting their way.
So its good to knwo they are two sides to it. Well there always were but I just never stopped to think about how the palestinians felt as my impression of them were gun-wielding palestinians. But this dvd has opened my eyes. Everyone is like everyone you know? I could have been born a palestinian and would be scared to death by hardlined jews throwing stones and cocktail bombs into my house. (of course, then again this could be bias but I believe there is some truth to it. )

Yeah so in the old testament they did have wars and God's people could take the land(but if only God gave it to them, like Canaan) and chase invaders out. But at this day and age, it just doesnt seem right, even if it was fighthing back land promised to you.

Dear God, what are your thoughts on this? Now it brings to mind, those people who were "enemies" to God's people, could they be just like the Palestinians today? Did they have feelings too, and lives and families and perhaps some, innocence? For all have sinned, yes, but even so the Jews.

=(

KL, KL

Don't know why, but this song from waaay back by some ang moh rapper/dj about kl is playing in my mind now. The reason why i typed waaaay back, although to me it isn't is that wasn't it just yesterday that abdullah's wife passed away? That, my dear friend was TWO years ago. Seems like last year. and also, wasn't it last december that I missed doreen's wedding? now they have a 5 month old girl who has stick-up hair and sucks three fingers. Hurrah for that because my mother says thats what i did. And she also said that she shouldnt have stopped me. NO wonder I continued sucking my thumb past an acceptable age and I have issues. (haha)

back in kl and the one thing you know you're here is not because of the malay signboards, but the mosquitoes. Oh how they have missed me. Esp the ones in my rooms. They continue to dwell in the dark corners.
Coming back also means my stomach never has the opportunity to deflate. It's one big meal after another. and snacking in between. I had my first taste of Godiva chocolate. Erm, as my mom says, we still prefer toberlone(?). yeah, its good lah. but not overly fantastic. i had a taste of granduja(?), which my mom says which one socialite on tv said it was the most expensive chocolate in the world. But I beg to differ. I'm sure somewhere in belgium something isgoing to cost more.

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Oh haha dear dear ireneaus (yay I spelt her name correctly. ) I do believe I have blogged about her before. She is dear (for now) as she commented and left her FULL name, as in not just her initials, so lazy commentors out there listen up. And maybe you'll get a mention in posts too=)
We gave her a small surprise on friday night. erm, which did not end up quite surprising. As she kinda knew. Ah well, I think we had a good time. Although it involved a lot of taxi time.
Well irenaues, even if I fell asleep (with you people throwing stuff at me and my mouth hanging wide open) and did not say goodbye to you, I WILL see you 9 days later which isnt very long and we can study together in school. Of course not just the two of us, for that will be incredibly weird right?=D
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I'm suffering withdrawal symptoms from singaporemodelunitednations which manifests itself in a stupid way. A crush. *roll your eyes please*

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anways gramaphone had 20% off storewide!! erm so bought some cds. most were like less than 15 bucks.
alanis morissette -- (erm...)
jars of clay- redemption songs (this was more than 15 but have been a long-time supporter of them, yes me and my sisters. )
the stereophonics- enough education to perform
muse- absolution (decided to buy this instead of the newer album as I'm sure I can kop it from impressionable ones who went to the muse concert. )
joshua bell - the essential (for my sister which i forgot to bring back!!)

wanted ok go! but gramaphone didn't have it -_-...............hmv still has the variety. and gramaphone doesnt label each individual artiste! its sooo hard to browse when you dont know what you want.

and I forgot to look for rachel yamagata!=(

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Again, I read some excerpts of my blog. And feel totally disgusted by the style of my writing. So.. whiny and bimbotic. a bit ah lian in a way. no offense to ah lians. (see that sentence just irks me!) (so did that exclamation mark! whiny. ergh)

i have to stop.

Comments

HMMM. I appreciate the comments, but can you just state your initials or something.

Being mysterious is straining on my curiousity.

day 3

wow its day 3 of the conference. time has SURPRISINGLY passed so fast. '

things are getting interesting.=) thanks to of course the small countries not backing down.

and here I am trying to finish my bio pracSSSSSSSSSSS while the rest are having pizza and doing a resolution without me.(the latter I don't feel so emo about. well, actually neither about the greasy tasteless canadian 2 for 1 pizza, but ah well being stuck in your room to do your homework pretty much is the lousiest cesspit to be stuck in. Well not really lah. But still...

Just now I was bathing. Now, hui en has warned me before about these nus halls bathroom ights that go off after a certain period of time. First the fan went off and I kinda knew the lights would go off and it did. luckily the toile lights were still on but it was kinda creepy like swimfan.

anyways, next time there's this personality test that says
I like making friends:
Yes NO
I'll circle N.O .

I mean I like having friends, but erm maybe the way of making friends is to take it slow and not to have to Hi! whats your name.....-_-

modle united nationns

So today is the first day of this model united nations thingy I joined. I arrived slightly late, as my clothes weren't dried yet.

Then balh blah speeches then first, or rather 0th comm meeting. arguing in circles... blah blah. airy fairy burmese delegate, blah blah. HEADACHE!
I think its a heat stroke?
yeah terrible.

I still have to do my bio pracs.

HMMMM.

I just kinda looked at my blog.

Eew did nOt like the way I said the previous line.

Not digging this font too. (Eeew again. digging? PLEase prisca)
Anyways, I thought the font was to small. so I'm making it bigger. Lets add some colour.

Green. Heh. Watched stomp the yard with debbo yesterday. (*one word.. Beaches!) It was so stompingly clappy hakka-spirit intense good. =) We decided we shall create the 11th floor sorority and our trademark action will be digging our nose. ermm. haha. well hello, it the magnum xi whatever wolves can do that stupid action, so can we do somthing of the similiar kind.

Okay later I have to go and do my Geog Survey. I am this close to procrastinating it but its been procrastinated for 2 months? So this is what I have to do.

HellocanItake2minutesofyourtime?I'mastudentfromacsiandneedtoconductasurveyformmygeographyproject.
saying this in one breath cos you know most people are in a rush. or cant be bothered.

then, its just ONE question,
So, where did you come from? (where do you live)

!!!!!

the introduction takes longer. sigh. argh.

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I realise a lot of people my age looks much older. Should I be worrying I still look teenagerish? I don't really want to. Then again I dont want to be caked with makeup all the time. Aiyah why sorryy about stupid things like this.
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Yesterdays worship prac was not.. no, just that I felt really inadequet.(?) Like everyone's says just play it simple no pressure, but well, I still think you have to play well. I mean, not superb but can play the songs like how they are played. ARgh. I'm not making much sense, but I just felt really inadequate. Like there were people there who are really good and INTO what they do. I'm like not working at my drumming. And yet not being able to play well doesnt get me going to that practice room.

Ah well. Thank God for Angie. She came for Noelle, but it was a blessing for me. :) I really suck at toms.

EEeps I can't stand my pessimistic self.

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I want to change my blog interface(?). To something DASTARDLY DARK. Muahaha. Thats King Lear's influence for you. I'm really enjoying it you know. Only when RC reveals the hidden stuff Shakespeare weaved into it. If not just by reading it, like huh?