My mom is watching hua yang shao nian shao nu

And she thinks that the S.H.E. tomboy is quite a good actress

i guess, her funny antics are just not conventional.

HAHA. my mom likes stuff like that.

Haha. i think if she had the exposure she would be addicted to taiwanese or korean dramas

and one of the characters remind me of tong, my obs instructor. Both are longish hair and are high jumpers, but the similarities end there. The male character is cuter. Haha.
but tong got into cleo's most eligible bachelor list.
so give him some credit larh.

and i'm very happy today!
cos my parents paid for my groceries. =)

and i'm getting money.

sigh money makes me happy.

john 3 :16

Oh yeah

This is shop is a camera acessory shop in funan.

The shopkeeper is truly a light to the world

I think even if his prices are not the lowest, I shall try to buy most of my camera stuff from there.

when I do get to buy them.

But he was super nice. though he had many customers, he tried to serve me, and was ever so polite when i rejected the case AFTER he had called 2 ppl to try to get it there and then.

He had pics on the wall showing kids from south east asia ( i think). so probably he went there on a mission trip or something.

he had a cert for something like volunteering in prison.

hmm. but did he have to put it up?

but he was nice and so was his staff.

so go to john 3 :16

even the other shops recommended it.


Haha.


Speaking of south east asian kids, i've been to philippines, was touched by the street kids running free in traffic; been to vietnam, had my heart strings tugged by the orphans.

And one particular orphan whose (I'm sad and horribly regretful) name can't remember.
But she had this unique look and stuck to me.
I have lovely pics with her but alas it is not with me.
To get to the point, I was being a stalker and looking at someone's blog. and found a pic of a girl which is from one of the ASEAn countries.

She looked so much like my girl from Vietnam.
Same eyes.
Freaky in a good way.

I miss her.

I don't know if I've said this before, but hugging her made me feel whole. feel love.

Something I thought I could only get from a boyfriend.

Today

Today I saw an eagle swoop before just as I was walking back to my room after

walking into a chinese restaurant in a way that my bro said wasn't smooth

because, walked in, couldnt recognized the person

but I didn't care

I thought he should be more concerned about how he dresses when he goes out

even if it's just to funan digital mall

and today I pretended not to recognize 2 people

one of them a teacher

the other came up to me

and I pretended I was super blur

mistake I guess, cos of a stupid thought that flashed through my mind

which i think its a classic girl's reaction

when she sees him **** another ****

today I made the quickest purchase ever for something so expensive,

and i knew instictively it was wrong

and it did turn out to be wrong

curse smses. they are one invention we can live without.

just call

fits so many smses in just one

and it doesn't allow ppl to hide behind voiceless and less confrontational smses

came back, slept till midnight

awaken by the RA for missing roll call

here i am.

blogging tommorrow about today

11.50 pm

You don't mean me.


*

Cold cold heart

Did I ever tell you my english teacher said I was cold-hearted, cruel?

And she's not someone to kid with.

It was when we were discussing tragic comedy for Hedda Gabler and we were looking for elements of pity in the play and i said i felt the most pity for Loevborg as he showed much promise earlier in the play ( I wasn't particularly impressed with his character initially but it's a textbook answer lah) but in the end, just because he lost the manuscript he spiralled downwards.

Then she said I was cruel, a bit cold hearted, as in while criticizing the play.

No offence taken, but I didn't mean it was his fault, rather I blamed it on the freak of a chanced incident that lead to his downward spiral. But then again, to think about it, he stupidly fell for Hedda and drank.

Hurrmph. Anyways, I don't really like these kind of plays. I prefer nice characters than characters like Miss Julie (UGH UGH!) and hedda.

Medea wasn't bad though. hur hur

Anyways, speaking of cold heartedness, I am very unsympathetic at times. I tend to look at the practical side and cannot allow myself to "allow" others to wallow. Not that I am that sensible that i don't get caught up with the situation and can't see the bigger pic.

Sigh. I have no empathy. Only for myself. (ok that doesn't make sense)

Like just now, my roommate's skirt flew away. She was erm.. wailing in distress and all I could do was argh, ok I have to help her but I"m doing something. And in the end i did, but wasn't that helpful. and kept telling her buy another skirt larh, then she said but its not altered. then i said AIYO GO BACK DURING CNy and ALTER LAH!

haha. I AM THAT BAD. No, lah no that bad=) cos after that i felt bad. haha i do have a heart after all

but sorry chian. but try not to flash me okay? have some modesty. Before i post the video of u changing in front of everyone up.

HAHA I AM THAT BAD.

Let's talk about german class

Today I was late for german class 20 minutes! becos the stoopid(did u know what I jsut did? I typed stoopid, then deleted it cos i thought it sounded immature and i hate immature blogging as in using cutesy words. anyhow) library comps' times are slow.

So late lorh. and my teacher actually came out to see if i was at the other class waiting. so nice. actually my german teacher is very nice. But he isn't so to big classes.

Anyways, don't care about that. I was suppose to find nouns and verbs that described this B&W pic. haha the others got coloured pics so more work for them.

it showed indian nationals office workers taking a smoking break in the fire escape.

and there were 2 dustbins, one on top of the stairs, the other at the bottom. The guy on the right of picture had a ring, tattoo, and metal bracelet on his hand.

yup, thats what I saw.

nouns: Raucher, Treppe(stufe) Mulleimer, Ring,...
Verbs: Rachen, sitzen, sich ant?// somethign something..

my lousy german language skills.

oh lets blog about something else so boring.

today for PE we went to the gym! YAY! I like going to the gym cos i'd imagine my muscles would be toned once i come out and i thought we'd be able to avoid the sun. so i did some leg work, arm work and ran. for 2.4 laps. and burned around 60 calories. yeah. and that stupid marcus ng said that the whole machine was shaking. ( but in the end i got back by saying to fong that he was almost taller than marcus.*shakes fist in victory!* HAHAHA...

then after that the pe teacher said run 4 rounds!!! gesumpt!
i didnt care, jsut run anyhow. and came in 2nd last. as in four girls, i was in teh 2nd last pair. Next time, gonna show the guys i can run. But this time, it was hot, my muscles were tensing up from the workout in the gym and i was running funny like a bunny with stiff tensed legs, so i jsut ran through the sprinklers.

then i ate panna cotta which had like what? 2000 calories?

Haha.

I want!

Anna Sui Black Lace Strapless Cocktail Dress With Sweetheart Neckline.

I never liked sweetheart necklines. They made me gag as I thought of american pageant gowns.
But this!

drools...

This too
Ulla Silk Dress
Mochino Jacquard Cocktail Dress
SHOES!

candle wick

I'm feeling like a candle now.

Yeah, yeah.

Inside I'm "melting" to bits. I secretly want to be burnt out so that I have an excuse to stop working and either, do everything all over again, or do something else with a better work habit.

Okay the candle thing was stupid.

But very very tired okay. I don't know if I'm subconciously making myself feel like that. You know adopting a pessimistic spirit because I'm too lazy to carry on. I mean, you're told to rise above the occasion; when life gives you lemons, make lemonade!; when things doesn't seem to go your way, persevere!

So as much as I would like to think that I am reaching my burnt out point, maybe I have something in me that would help me do this. Okay that sounded so cliche.

Aiyah, in other words, keep working! But the feeling that I have that I'm not going to make it is still there.

on a happier note, thank you God for helping me not be booked today. If not it'll be my 5th time and I'll get a demerit point.

anyways, I think I want the new leica dslr dunno what model. &1500!! Not bad. But is it a rangefinder asked john. huh? I said. What's a rangefinder?

But I'm feeling so small

Fright.
( I jumped 2 feet, no lah, 2 steps down and up when deborah screamed and I screamed. cos she saw a lizard. The feeling was quite shiok I haev to say. Brief suspension(?) in air and letting out an INSTINCTIVE (itellyou) ear-piercing banshee scream. )

Scared.
( It's Feb. Which means less than a month for me to DO MY EE. ASDJFSKJDGLHJSLKGH. Stupid roadblocks. I don't wanna drive anymore. Why why why can't I do it with my all? I want to be seriously frightened of the fact that I may just not make it in time for the datelines. *closes eyes in self defeat*)

Tired.
(trying to supress the irritation again and again. makes me feel a little glad that this year is going to end. )

ooh notice how when I'm happy everything is pretty and nice?(note post on 6.10 Gethsemane)

Well, I've concluded those are the times when I"m blind. I think I actually want to see the bad side of people so that I don't feel cheated when I "invest" in being their friend and feeling that it isn't reciprocated.(FOr example, the nice warm furry feeling of love you feel because of your friend IS a benefit to you. It makes you happy, socially accepted, needed, emotional needs met so it contributes to your emotional and social perhaps well-being. )

The horrors of horrors. What A TERRIBLE thing to say! Do you mean that you're only a friend for gain? But just like my english teacher says, I am cold hearted. I believe we're all friends cos it benefits us.

Then again I can think of examples where friendships didnt exist so that it was a two way trade route.

Sigh sigh sigh. Now you know the evil thoughts that run through my head.

don't be so perasan ok? I don't mean you.

My my that sounded horrid.

horrid torrid.

tired of mysel.f

=/