Well I guess.....

I really really really want to take pictures.

Emo pictures. You know the kind that makes one feel "street-cool" or you're young and you're travelling or just doing you own thing.

Or, pictures on flickr with colours so vibrant and contrast and shades and lighthing that is almost perfect that you hope ardently that they are photoshoped for how will you ever get to that stage at this rate when you're 18 and you don't have a SLR.

I mean there's so much to know. Not just the techie part (photoshop (omgoodness, thick thick books on it) and maximising your SLR, or what about modifications to it to take eg infra-red pictures that take cold cold witnry pictures instead), there's also old school stuff that dSLRs just can't replace.


Hahaha....one day.

post christmas gloom and the inevitable first day of school

this is what my german teacher sent the class, through email.
Liebe Kursteilnehmer,

Zu aller erst wuensche ich euch allen ein schoenes Weihnachtsfest und
hoffe, dass ihr eine ruhige und entspannende Zeit mit euren Familien
verbringen werdet.
Falls es euch aber zu langweilig werden sollte, habe ich eine Loesung:
schaut einfach in den Anhang der E-mail! Dort findet ihr Vokabellisten und
fuenf verschiedenen Uebungen zum Thema Mensch fuer das Individual Oral.

Just take a look through the vocab and do the exercises. One of those can
be used for your individual oral in week 2 already.

Lasst euch reichlich beschenken!

Frohe Weihnachten und einen Guten Rutsch ins Neue Jahr!

Beste Gruesse
Stefan Serwe

*So,my german being ultra rusty and the german file i had brought back lying at the bottom of my suitcase, i couldnt understand it. AS in i know liebe, and soem other words. but HAH, through universal understanding(i mean teachers dont wish you merry christmas for nothing) I KNEW IT WAS ABOUT WORK. BAH HuMBug. but no no, i am grateful for such dedication and I AM WORRIED FoR MY GRADES.


so i googled "translator" and found a site to translate my email. Da ist hier(or Hier ist da?:/)

Loves class participant,
Too all only I wish you everything a beautiful Christmas and
hope, that it a calm and relaxing time with your families
will spend.
If it should become too boring you however, I have a solution:
looks simply into the appendix of the E-Mail! There to the topic humans find
its Vokabellisten and five different exercises individual for the oral.
Just take A look through the vocab and DO the exercises. One OF those CAN
used for your individually orally in week 2 already.
Let you plentifully present!
Glad Christmas and a good slide in the new year!
Beste Gruesse
Stefan Serwe

SO GOOD SLIDE INTO 2007 EVERYBODY!

I was watching TV...

AAANDD.. this video on ROckit! came on. at first being a teenager that has can concentrate better than the older generation but not on one thing at a time I wanted to change the channel. But dunno why even with the old-skool images of cowboys and starwars C3PO(? the bigger golden one). I stayed, AND IT TURNED OUT TO BE MY FAV CAN DANCE TO BAND OF THE MOMENT------muse.

heh. really really. I, like, jsut discovered them recently though their songs have been lying in my itunes playlist. I mean I've only really like time is running out, but then recently comign across some drum tabs of their's I realise how good their music is. AND SO NICE TO DANCE TO WITH YOUR HEADPHONES ON AT MIDNIGHT WITH NO ONE AROUND.

AAAANDDD....THEY"RE COMING TO SINGAPORE!!!!!!
BUT LIKE TICKETS ARE 95!!! ugh. no no no i can;t i can;t they're not on the same level as COLDPLAY. hmmm.. but i have not got to the bottom of their music so what if there are like hidden gems!!

sigh.. ugh. why couldnt i discover them after they came.like the killers for example.

Anyways, crossed my fingers and toes and hope to score some tickets from MTVASIA. heh. i wish.

just go listen to starlight(!!!!!).

my ipomea aquatica babies

Shall I kill them??

To refuse them water, when these few have been so loyal to my cause to emerge out of the soil their green shoots that are so ripe with life....so innocent. =(

but alas I have to use mung beans for my cause.

So shall I let them shrivel and die??
But they're only BABIES!!

this is like infanticide. ='(

switchfoot

Dinner sessions with tomkat

okay that was a lame title.
haha
hahaha.

During dinner just now while attempting to read How to read the Bible for All Its Worth which i brought down with me cos i knew i would be eating alone as most of my friends are gone and the others that remain i am not too close to and they are safely wrapped in their nationality coccoons(by that I mean that they are hanging out with their respective indo/vietnamese/philipino juniors.) so muah with no malaysian juniors to boot (yet, but i doubt if I'll ever get to know them cos of u know my dont careness or perhaps acording to my my theory of malaysians quite similiar to singaporeans so easier for us to click hence we may not feel the urge to find security in numbers.) (something like that lah)

ahem. so anyways during dinner, this ginger cat with its left front paw held gingerly(haha really no pun was intended) and stumpy tail came hopping over to me. I look down at it and it said "miao". wow. me? i mean i wasnt expecting it to like you know, want soemthign from me! =D

no lah. just well, no human contact for a day gets to the mind you know?

around its neck was a bell, with a collar summore(!) this cat is special i thought. Its not a stray and it is hurt and it is lost and has to be returned to its owner. and i must say this cat had a nice orangey coat. pretty tabby too. =D

Normally i am super hygienic. I dont touch things that may have germs or fleas. but remember this cat is special. so i scratched its head, then turned the collar over to see if the owner was smart enough to identify it. nada. oh well then I decided thats enough imagining fleas jumping on to me. (did u knwo that fleas can jump as high as a house?)so i got up and went away to wash my hands.

poor poor kitty. the last i saw of it after not getting attention from the other people was hobbling away to where it came from.

well i hope it finds its home cos its lucky enough not to be born a stray.




I really dunno why I'm blogging about this. I want a camera so i can have nice pictures.


*scratches invisible flea*

during dinner, i thought a lot. I thought, it really sucks to be "alone" in the hostel. I should always escape back home as soon as the hols come. but then again, if I go overseas, I"m gonna be "alone". Then I thought, maybe this feeling of loneliness means i miss my family? hur hur. or rather just for the sake of company I miss my family. Don't get me wrong, I really really love my family, but dunno, never really felt tangible pangs of missing them. once in a while i guess.
In vietnam, every waking moment there was company. Has staying in a hostel made me forget what having company felt like? not that i didnt have company, just that there tend to be more moments of aloneness. sometimes. then again no. much of the time is school. ugh i dunno. i just want escape. i want to go back to vietnam or pulau ubin or some abbey away from RESPONSIBILITIES.
yeah, so its not really the company i want. just that loneliness makes worse the state of have not done anythign that has to be done and that is hard to do and worse, may not have enough time to do.

I asked God to help me.......