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WARNING:VULGARITIES ARE BEING SPEWED.


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WHAT THE )#QI$)_{!#@I$){I!@P$OIJ@OP!IJ!!!!!!\

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some IDIOTIC person, WHO IS DOOMED WITH IDIOTICTISM FOREVER,judging by his/her behaviour, just MESSED WITH ME.

to be specific, my larundrry!!!

ARGH!!!!RAHH!H!H@#!H!H!


*SCREAMS!!!*

(now why am I so pissed?I dUNNO MAYBE ITS BECAUSE ITWS PERSONAL ITEMS SO TREAT IT WELL K!)


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grr..

hello?? like i put my nice white ikea laundry basket there with my name on it so that if YOU (the idiot i'm sorry this is mean but YOU ARE!) are IMPATIENT, you could put my DONE laundry in it. THATS THE REASON WHY I PUT IT IN FRONT OF THE DRYER IDIOT!. ugh.
make me feel guilty for calling you names but seriously. I MEAN I BLOCKED THE @#UI!O#O DRYER DOOR WITH MY BASKET> YOU KNOW, THAT"S QUITE A BIG HINT!

ugh. instead, I found it on the floor, with one shirt and one shorts on top of it, and the rest on top of the stupid dryer. I had a good mind to shorten your drying time, or rip all your clothes out from the bowels of the dryer but luckily there was someone there to stop me from acting out.

ERGH. I HATE YOU.

the same thign happened for the washing machine. I mean hello, the basket is leaning so CONSPICUOSLY ON THE MACHINE. INFRONT SUMMORE> WHAT MORE YOU WANT? ON TOP??!
but at least this WONDERFUL CoNSIDERATE PERSON PUT MY CLOTHES IN SOME BASKET.

And its not my fault, its not like i leave my clothes there. if its already 1 hour, i go down and check. and the 1st time there are usually not done. so i check repeatedly. ddont blame me if I'm not lucky to catch it when its done and before stupid hounds come and remove my clothes and dump it in the most convenient place for them.

I have half a mind to wait there and GIVE THE IDIOT A PIECE OF MY MIND> hey i have ironing to do. yes lets! why dont we. i mean its gonna waste my time and not do any good, but hey, i feel like venting and this person looks like he/she is gonna get it.


I'm kidding, I'm not that uptight.

then again, OSjrpirqwjerlkjnq! I'm SUPER PISSED.

Apprehension sets in

ap‧pre‧hen‧sion  /ˌæprɪˈhɛnʃən/ Pronunciation[ap-ri-hen-shuhn]
–noun
1. anticipation of adversity or misfortune; suspicion or fear of future trouble or evil.
2. the faculty or act of apprehending, esp. intuitive understanding; perception on a direct and immediate level.
3. acceptance of or receptivity to information without passing judgment on its validity, often without complete comprehension.
4. a view, opinion, or idea on any subject.
5. the act of arresting; seizure.

I am apprehensive about going to vietnam!
I always do this. blocking reality out. No lah, actually just not thinking about it. Like not really thinking about it and telling myself, Prisca, you're going to be in Vietnam you know!
argh. I'm scared. Cos mentally I'm not prepared. I just started packing. In the afternoon i was moping, procrastinating, wanting to go to FOS to look for some long sleeve clothing without thinking, i don't need it, I have TWO perfectly thick jackets borrowed from kind nathania. And i won;t use long sleeves here cos its erm very humid and hot.
and waste more money!

speaking of wasting money, I was extremely tempted to order Macs. I just wanted to give myself a treat(?). I mean, its depressing, packing, seeing no one i want to see the whole day, and i just found out i might not get my rice! i mean, its not just that, I could get gerard to get some for me in the philipines but the experts tell me its hard to grow rice hydroponically without experience. I want to sms my teacher mentor RGIHT NOW! and moan and groan and say HOw, sir??!! how??!?! but one must control oneself. I can still do stuff in vietnam as there is internet there. (close eyes, breathe in)

I'm bloody lonely now.
So i think living in a hostel is not bad,i mean you are constantly surrounded by friends whether or not you want their company all the time. (but just try not to stay here when everyone else has left) (how am i going to survive till mmid dec!??) (*burst out crying*)

but I'm glad when I'm at home, i dunno, even when I'm alone in the afternoon, there is always TV. haha. but I look at soem of my friends here, they're at home, and they're lonely and bored.

haha I thank God for a home that i want to go to and is comfortable in.
Like my dad says, Home is the Best or something. Like he doesnt mind staying at home than going on a holiday.

that reminds me, I have to explain my expenses to him.:(

lonely sad procrastinating why why why!




;'(

SAD

yes I am feeling rather Sad. (to digress, was listening to switchfoot's the economy of mercy and i actually thought i was listening to vertical rush. now, this switchfoot song was recorded in their early pre-famous days so i deduce that maybe there is hope for vertical rush/local christian music bands after all)

ahem yes. Yesterday night I came back (was not late:)) from erm mamaking(if there is such a thing in sg) with anh and melvin.
and melvin mentioned something that made me feel like i'm a social inept=( I SHALL SAY IT HERE: HE SAYS I SAY THINGS AT THE WRONG TIME . DEAR FRIENDS, AM I LIKE THAT? Do tell me. for I like to be made aware of my social inadequecies.
blah

humph. BUT i think he wasnt saying objectively. and neither was I when I said that, cos i was thinking he's probably influenced by HER. Please God, help me forgive her. May not make her "look" any better to me, but well, unforgiveness is unforgivable you know.

(to digress again, my nails are so long its hard to type. but this time they're long and clean. =D)

So, i am sad cos there is no one to go ginza or clementi with. Pin and deb are gone, and my roomate elin just left to. Yesterday night, as i was looking for my hairband which i forgot was broken and thrown away in the dark, my roomate emerged from dreamland and said, "Prisca, if I dont see you tmr morning, GOODBYE! " aww shucks i hate departures(?).so sad. like the end of something. It is. Most probably we won;t be rooming again next year because neither of us put each other as prefer roommates. WEll i think change is good. But elin has been nice. and generous without limit. haha.
I wanted to write a nice note for her but i guess horrible me just was caught up with ahem ,regine's hobby. anyways, elin has been superbed at tahanning me temperament, my impatience and grumpiness, and always, without fail, enthusiastic, which i think i need more of in my life. heeh.

I have to pack today for Vietnam, but alas I still have not ordered my hydroponic set. =( shites. bleh. and geog ee. must email ok prisca?/ but thank GOd (really) for allowing humans to invent the internet so veitnam will have internet connection.

apparently its gonna be cold. and windy. WHEE. but i hope i hope i wont die in my summer clothes. I hope the trip will be meaningful. I hope i will not let myself ruined it. no one cann ruin it for me only if I let them, right?

(to digress again, the japanese students still havent emailed me the pics. what happeneed to the love we had? =( )

well, here's to vietnam. hope it will be a short escape from the throes of EE, GEOG FIELDWORK, TOK essay, SAT and all my uncaughtup studies. short respite from it. and that IT wont be a bitch. i mean that quite literally too.

20 minutes later...
that jynn made me join FRIENDSTER! argh swore to myself when it was in that i would NEVER join such a childish thing. hurmph. but ALL her photos are there. why can't people use more sophisticated services like flickr? hurmph. my integrity has been compromised.
oh my profile says:
Prisca Lim
18, single, female.

and it hit me.

I AM OLD. I mean, 18??!!!


*EDIT/ERRATUM:not vertical rush, i meant sonic edge band. erm vertical rush ah, looong way to go. but me, even longer, u know?

D people

Throw immature dominant people together in a mixing bowl and give it to me and it makes me feel like screaming at them.
blasted. blasted. blasted. For I am dogmatic too. So don't throw aside my ideas, cos i think i'll at least try to go with yours.
but doggedly dismissing other's ideas just because you want to insist on your own, now thats STUPID.

in situations like that, what does one do? try to be obliging? but putting up a stand doesnt really work if that person has a block of wood for its head. hrm. tricky tricky.

and they are SO not worth my emotions


but they got to me today. =(

Dedication to Debchua who talks a lot of crap

Today was the first day of my menses which means cramps that make me feel as if i have diarrohea.(wrong spelling i know)
But guai as i was, i went for german despite knowing i'll be suffering from awful contractions of my womb. humph.
three quarters into it, i decided i couldnt take it anymore, dunno why it was so cold after i came back from the toilet. I couldnt concentrate, so i told my teacher to excuse me.

As I was crossing the bridge, I felt weak. And suddenly everything was brighther but contrast increased. Surreal. Haha. As i neared the hostel gate i felt i would faint if i continued. SO i stopeed at the bus stop. then I made it to the canteen table and collapse into the chair and felt like i was dying. weak, and weakened more by the cramps.

i really really wanted to pass out so i didnt have to experience that horrible feeling but i was worried if i passed out what would happen to my body. As in if i'm feeling so sick obviously it isnt a good thing right? so i was worried if i passed out whatever was wrong with me would get worse and i would die in my fainting spell.

I put my head down hoping i would feel better but it didnt work. So i called Deborah who was thankfully in the hostel as she had no going out clothes=).

To cut the story short, she bought me milo, which made things a little better. and thenn I PUKED. into the wonderful filled with gross bacteria toilet bowl.brown milo and a little mush. i sat on that floor. it was dry but eww. still.

bitter bitter bile in my throat. you know everytime i puke i feel like sobbing. heh. then i laid there like a wasted person while deb tried to get air circulating by making fannning motions with the door.

ooh but much much better. Dying feeling subsided. managed to get up to my room and collapsed into bed. woke up feeling much much better.

SO big big thanks to Deb who was there to help me as best she could and even checking on me when i awoke. thanks Debbo=D

reminder to self: next time you feel like you're dying, puke, cos that whats the body wants to do. i experienced this the last time i ate the nasi K-thingy that had something bad in it.

WArning: do not read, for it is a rant out of frustration

I read blogs then i am inspired to blog. therefore i'm blogging even though i feel like bursting.

argh. i dont even bother about the structure of this post.
i am frustrated.angsty. tired. dying. dont want to get it out. feel like crying.
for i am so stressed. this is one of those days when i wish wish that time will stop so i could complete my work in my own leisurely time. but no i can't snap my fingers and will time to stop.

ee. stupid stupid stupid. geog. even more frustrating! argh! sob sob sob. all these gotta get it done soon before vietnam comes. and vietnam doesnt seem to be something to look forward to. argh.
do i have to stay here till mid dec? then what abt corrine may concert. horrible horrible. just now her song was playing and i thought "shut up corrine may" shocking shocking
but thats how distraught i am.

not to mention TOk essay. but when it comes i'll stress about it.

but not now, now all i can'T handle is ee and geog.

oh not to mention i really really want to sue nike for deforming my foot and causing me pain. that design has done damage to another girl as well. i should sue. and get me 3 million dollars which would solve oh quite a few problems. like a new pair of jeans that doesnt make me look like a preteen boy and maybe a nice dress that wont make me feel guilty cos it isnt's that cheap. and also i know my sister is going to say where is all the money i gave you to buy me the camera?! and also 3 million will get me a camera where i wont feel guilty for not waiting for its price to go down.

anyways, i nearly killed a friendship today. all because of a misunderstanding. thank God for intervention. love to put the juicy details down but with my incoherentness and typos i think you all will get the story wrong.

and i'm escaping all this with entertainment. whoa way to go.

and good riddance. no i'm sorry but i'm pissed- fine, it is very well that roommates who dont pull their weight in keeping the place hygeinable are gone. hence less mess made and less me gagging with disgust. ugh. i don't really like myself now. but huh, i'm sick and tired of it.

nice moments, i am so thankful for that person. (no not the one who makes the mess yet doesnt clean. that one, i am thankful for helping me be a more tolerable person. yeah RIGHT.)
when everything is nice and goes my way, i think grateful thoughts about that person.
but when things are mundane or i'm feeling not so good, all the irritable traits of the person become noticed. and sometimes i dont respond very well to it. then I feel horrible.

oh horrible horrible entry. shall i post you up? detrimental consequences may arise from ppl reading this but in the spur of the I-don't-give-a-youknow- moment is shall post this for all i care. i took time to type this it darn well better be up.

i should know better. but right now i want to go against that.

who reads the title anyways?

i think it has been my longest break from blogging from this year.

eh nothing to blog about lah.
haha