of synthetic grass and black sand

today was "casual day" where we allowed to come to school dressed casually, but ahem not advised to wear flip flops. hello? flip flops are almost the epitome of slackness=casualness. but thats something some will argue i guess. hmm..
the match between the yr 5s and teachers involved a lot of head smacking for me. due to the part mainly of the teachers. haha if that was played on tv it would be a comedy. and the referee was the discipline teacher. so the boys used the phrase,"referee KAYU!" rather liberally.lol.

and i never knew you could really do a header with specs on. =)

I think we've been here before....

L E T    I T    G O
Written by Corrinne May Ying Foo
Copyright 2003, Corrmay Gourmet Music (ASCAP)

I think we've been here before
I recognize this place
I've seen the marks of confusion
wipe out a single sign of grace
And I don't want to play anymore
Not when the stakes are so high
So before we circle round once more
I'm gonna lay down,
Lay down my pride

Let it go, let it be
Don't waste all your emotion on this
tit-for-tat machine
Let it go, let it be
Let it go

I turn on the TV
and it screams out at me
Nothing seems to have changed
since the start of Adam and Eve
So we're waiting for the sky to fall
and we're buying brand new toys
But before we circle round once more
Can we lay down
Just lay down this pride

Let it go, let it be
Don't waste all your emotion on this
tit-for-tat machine
Let it go, let it be
Let it go
Don't go wasting your emotions
No one wins if we keep score
Let it go, let it be
Let it go

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I'm so sick of these presumptious, overcalcualtive thoughts
they make me overimaginative, hallucinative,
I act according to them
shrinking.
To hell with you thoughts that are my demons
To hell with you
but still they cling and leave false impressions
it destroys everything potentially good before it begins
everything
Oh for you to be silent and bring no more harm....
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why? am i too sensitive? but why? are you that blind? once, twice, am I suppose to give you the benefit of the doubt? but i could never give you the full benefit of the doubt. I never forget, it resurfaces when it happens again. The worst is maybe its me that was bad, but i apologized...but has what i've done too unforgivable? and the worse is, i don't know whether to say to hell with you all and be bitter, and either way I lose out. but then again, I could just maybe, maybe jumping to conclusions. Oh hell. I jsut want to confront you. but there's a possibility you might just lie. would it be worth it. I need to transported out from here. Lord, teach me how to really let go and forgive.
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dot dot dot

=( Art fest photog exhibitions are ending this thurs=((. and i have common tests nxt week so cannot go after sch. =((
phooey. and why is olympus's E-33 soo cheap? i mean,. haha it can be, but why? i'm suspicious. soemthings not qutie right. but wow, if it is, then wow. but olympus? haha.

just had maths remedial. got a headache at the end of it. prob due to IOP. ARGH!! only what?16-18 marks=(? everyone looked confused and some fell aslepp.(but i gie myself the benefit of the doubt that its just their bo-chap attitude haha) grr.. I shud have jsut watched yest match from the start. and Chem. hah. For once i did it on time and don;t need to hand up! WHAT!! good thing it's just brazil against ghana. humph. wah. but stayign up(well not really. i woke up at 2.50) is quite taxing ont eh body the next day.

OH BUT WHY OF WHY THIERRY DID YOU HAVE TO FAKE IT? I WISH U DIDNT. WERE YOU DESPERATE> THE WORST PART IS, A GOAL WAS SCORD> AND ZIDANE'S GOAL DOESNT JUSTIFY ANYTHING BECOS SPAIN wAS DESPERATElY TRYING TO SCORE SO MOST OF THEIR PLAYERS WERE ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE FIELD> NOT THAT I REALLY SUPPORT SPAIN BUT WHAT I THOUGHT YOU WERE I THOUGHT YOU WOULD WIN WITH D>I>G>N>I>T>Y. sigh. but i think i still love you.

AND OH AHn JUNG HWAN! I"M SO SORRY I MISS YOUR GOAL AND THE ONLY TIME YOU APPEARED> AH bUT YOU ARE IN GERMANY NOw. STAY THERE And MAyBe I"LL BE Able to see you one DAY! AND Oh! I left me ahn jung hwan t shirt back home. and Casual Day's theme is World CUp!! ARGH!!!! (hmmm but recent pics of u with that moustache makeu dont look so good. i'm starting to like no 7 little cute boy)

better get to work. =D

its mon 3.11 pm. -go figure

hahahaha..three flights up by yellowcard is on repeat ..heheh.. i feel so evil..but some of their songs are just so noisy.

i feel life is hanging by the moment now. (heheh) but really, its going to go downhill or go up. can;t really explain cos some things are too sensitive to me for some to know, but i hope it goes up cos something tells me life doesnt have to suck all the time=)(gosh i wonder why i feel so sappy writing that,.must be the music.) but then again, inreality, sigh.

anyways, WOOOHOOOO!!!! the hostel has a drum set now!!! yup yup thats what i heard...hmmm.......hhahahahahahahhahahahaha. i gonna be the best drummer i can be.=D

back to work.

mmmm...

researching lu xun now.. argh why do I have to be so analytical? if i wasn't it would save me a lot of time when i do research. =( so hard. but this is long long overdue..=(
aaand..just found a way to remove hair painlessly, and its quite erm.."addiciting" in a way? now i understand soe..lol
and purple sweater from east india company has come to haunt me again. and the black halter eludes me still. sigh.
back to lu xun so at least i'lll feel lesss guilty watchign WC.=D still havent spotted ahn jung hwan. someone told me he's a reserve now??

For Jeane

I wish we would have been able to say, Korea here we come!

Gah

Gah..!
just now the electricians came to change the lights...
good BUT so embarrasing cos the room is in a total mess. and so dirty!!
argh procrastination you betrayed me.=((
sigh. heh. at least good thing at least I was around.
Suppose to go for touch rug.
then since i would be 45 minutes late and it was pouring i decided not to go once i reached the lift. so a waste of a pair of contacts .
still dunno whether I should quit touch. Gah!=p
suppose to sleep now.. cos woke up feeling..shacked.
yesterday was emotionally tiring. A emotionally roller-coaster ride. wooh.
and crystal jade kitchen is well..not as good as the coffee shops in malaysia. =D
and i hope i survive the next week. and i hope i get some studies and homework done. (panic attack) (well i won't exactly die from not completing my work right? but i think i'd rather die than face the consequences. heaven seems appealing now.) (ignore me)

oh oh! went for a SHOOTOUT (haha i love that using that word) with ali on wed nite! spontaneous one too. yay..i love spontaneity. ahem. shall post pics once someone helps me upload it. =)