so pissed i have a dark ache in me

i am pissed. i know i shouldnt blog when pissed, but i'm too pissed to care

firstly, i was reading the newspaper in the pantry. then the matron came and asked me what i was doing there. i said i'm readign the paper.
she says why arent you in your room? Shouldnt you be in your room during study time?
i say but i'm reading the papers. its considered sch work (as we are encouraged to keep up with current events)
so she says so do i mark u as present in your room?(they sometimes check to see if we are in our rooms studying during studyign time)
i say yeah becos i'm doing something related to sch work.
and then she says so do i mark you as present in your room?
and i'm thinking well i'm not in my room obviously and why are u askign me that (*$@*@$ question when its up to you.
can ppl be REASONABLE? whatever.

secondly, i am getting very irritated at some of the comments made. if it has nothign to do with the post and u have soemthing to say to me, pls email me. this is a public domain, not my mail box. i would liek to say more, but i know i'll regret it.

The Hardest Part

oh my coldplay cd, where art fort thou? please return to me...=((
nothing beats coldplay..
heheh.. saw the new coldplay video.. very different from their past ones...but the dancing was quite gross. don't understand the concept. (hrm, just realized the toolbar has changed)
didnt like the way guy berryman grooved.

=(

I didn't win the commonwealth photo competition.. not that I have a chance of winning, but if so happens that a fluke of mine won i would be greatly spurred on to pursue this hobby. An SLR is a single reflex lens camera, and because of its single reflexedness, the pic quality is much better and u have more manual control. I soudn like an ignorant fool but i hate all the jargon.. harhar. and the real and honest reason why i want to use an SLR is so that i look more professional and the shutter sound sounds nicer. It is the kidn of soudn that is satisfying, like when u hit the shuttlecock properly there's this nice wushy sound.

Sigh but an SLR would cost me close to 4000 ringgit. All this while I"ve been thinking 1800 sgd.. that number is certainly smaller.. Maybe i should live in Signaproe so i can afford all those "small" numbers... I saw my pair of sch shoes today in one utama. They were a stagerring 239 ringgit ( stagerring in terms of their quality which is b*ll*hit(sorrybut it did give me bunions.. i used to have such pretty feet, they were my only pride and joy *sob sob*)) anyways i got them a lot morecheaper in singapore.. about 80 sgd i think.. sigh.. such a waste of money.. i could buy 2 pieces of clothing ( now if u think i'm soundign materialistic, keep that thougth to urself.i know it already)just kidding.

=(

I want:
-Kodak V570
-White Sennheiser PX-200 headphones
-An SLR
-mp3 player.. no cheapos thank you...nor apples
-to study elsewhere besides asian countries
-music cds
-concert tickets to coldplay and switchfoot
of course, I will always want more, and I should be wanting more nobler things like end to starvation and more conservation..... but I am self absorbed in my inmmediate world. sigh..

Har har. but i ant to talk aboutthe kodak easyshare v570. It's tagline, "where technology becomes desire" , i can so identify with. why?becase it can take wide angle pics. i know slrs can too but they're too bulky to bring around. And in pics i always want to capture what i see. I hate it when whatever u see cant be taken. therefore with its built in wide angle lens and panaroma stitch mode, i can be able to capture what i see that is worth capturing.. sigh i'm talkign crap but i just want a good camera....

Kiasu?

Today I as being kiasu. Subconciously, i think. haha. Anyways I was at Ikea, and I paid(well not me but it was paid) for a soft drink and you have to fill it up yourself. So there was a sign that said (No refill for soft drinks.) So i dunno why, when the bubbles had settled in the drink i filled it up some more and managed to fill it up to the brim. hmm... I fleetingly thought, hmm that's quite kiasu. but what the heck. so when i carried it back to the table aunty A took it from my tray to carry it for me but i told her its ok but she told me to take a sip. When i had to do that i felt so embarrased....So KIASU. har har.

The second incident was when i came back to the hostel. since it was already 11, I went straight to the 5th floor to do roll call instead of heading back to my room. when the lift door opened on the 5th floor, i saw the teacher who does it outside. the ppl in it were a bit stunned to see her there i guess cos usually she should be inside the tv room and we wanted, well I wanted to take attendance but she shooed us out of the lift and went in. ok fine.. then more and more girls came and they went into the tv room. so i waited. and thought of the brilliant thought of waiting outside the lift so that i can take attendance and not wait with the rest of the girls inside.(it actually takes a loooong time to take ur attendance unless u push ur way through.) but when she came out of the lift, SHE TOTALLY IGNORED US!!! even when i called after her..(ok fine i'll give her the benefit of the doubt. maybe she doesnt liek being called madam )0! )I was so pissed i decided not to take attendance. it was not cutting queue!! I was there at first she didnt let us take attendance so why should i wait another 15 minutes?everynight becos I'm too "gentle" to push my way through i waste about 15 minutes while everyone takes attendance. 15 minutes everynight, thats 7.5 days a month, 90days a year, and since i'm spending 2 yrs here, that'll be 180 days wasted.ahem.. totally justified.
When that "madam" ran off into the tv room leaving me stunned and speechless, my friend said "Kiasuness doesn't pay off" phooey. i am so pissed.