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aih, took so much time looking at other's ppl's blog. anyways, this period is terrible. i'm missing out so much stuff. baybeats, sonic fest and a bunch of other stuff. yesterday, was parousia's last performance. and jsut when i was starting to like them. sigh. couldnt go. the matron was about to sign my permission when i said, ermm..i dont think i'll need it anymore. phhooey. one minute i'm sensible telling myself "no, must study for prelims" adn the next i'm thinking i should go... and sonic flood was playing yesterday too. i've never heard their music before, but i heard they're good. and today while i was studying so hard my friend called me up to persuade me to go. =(said sonic flood was good. sigh. and now i'm wasting my time doing this. see, even if i had gone it wouldnt matter cos i'm not studying now anyways. same with yesterday too. i was too hot to study and jsut fell asleep under the fan. dunno u i was so hot. was as if i still hadnt cooled down from the day before's jog. but it wasnt the feverish feeling. oh well. since u're probably thinking i should be studying instead of doing this i shall try to finish whatever i'm doing and go.

this is the colour i'm feeling now. tired. dry orrible taste in my mouth. eyes are dried out so i think its the dry air cond air causing a diffusion gradient and since the aqueous humour in my eyeball is hypotonic to the air outside, water diffuses across the permeable membrane(conjunctiva in this case?)and into the air. actually i cant use diffuse for osmosis. oh well. my head is aching because just had a bio exam and before that a practical. hrm hrm.
brown is beautiful but pink is better. har har. yeah right. heehee kidding. this green is nicer.oh yeah since i'm just crapping now lemme tell u abt squash. thought abt it cos my coach likes green. really. all her acessories are green. i like green too. bought a bracelet that had a tinge of it. i like green when i makes stuff look liek it came out from a midsummer's night dream. back to the pumpkin(haha i mean squash). this is the last week of squash club. boohoo. and i was beginning to like it a lot. from last yr when i first held the oblong narrow weird racket, i have cometh very far i should say=). haha. now i can challenge jynn. and i'm even begiining to be more interested in nicol david. she came to singapore u noe. and one of my malaysian junior who got her autograph didnt even know who she was. tsk tsk.
oh must confess y i had to take the bio test today. hrm wonder if i should do it here. anyways, on sat the hostel fed us lamb meatballs. and it didnt have a nice muttony smell, but one of a dead lamb carcass that has been broiled. mushed and rolled into bleh balls and cooked in some starchy sauce. so i came down with stomach pains. hrm cant really blame it on the lamb though. but it realy had a bad smell lor. maybe it was just a placebo. anyways, decided to feel more sick than i should cos i had a bio and social studies test. didnt really finish studying so i purposely "felt" the stomach pains on monday morning. but i really did still have it lor.(but maybe it was becos i didnt eat breakfast.) hrm. anyways at 5.30 in the mornign , i was asking God if i should go to sch and i dunno maybe, maybe not i felt a clear answer to go to sch. but i brushed it aside becos i sometimes think its just myself. but boohoo. sonic edge came to do chapel.. ARRHHH!!! missed it. sigh. thats a terrible thing to feel sorry abt but i think the ministry is cool.man i'm terrible and cowardly. sigh.

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that is how my mouth is like now. haha. hey maybe i should change my font colour to make a bit more exciting. how about pink?haha. actually soft pink is quite nice. anyways i am elated to be chosen for ns. yup yup. imagine me, a tall big 20 yr old, mingling with 17 yr old squeaks(pardon me) and learning good good stuff like loving ur country. cant exactly say i'm very excited to hold a rifle ( i was at the army open house in singapore) but err.. well shall not say it here cos it is a personal ignorant presumptious opinion that cannot be made known to mature, enlightened and critical ppl. argh nuff said.

hmm. cant remember what i wanted to say so in the mean time i shall bore u with how my mental state have been in the past weeks. i am deeply immersed in thinking about studying. yes. becos i'm having mock papers every monday, so everyday of the week i am thinking of my studies. and i've even looked far into the horizon and saw my prelims looming and thought about how i have no time left to study for my prelim which is more important than my o levels since it decides which jc i go to and even if i do beeter in o levels i cant go to a better jc. so all this thinking has made me a more sober person. no going for baybeats, sonic fest, concerts, womad, asean dance, and maybe even founder's day(prom). sigh. gosh. and i always feeling that i need to sleep off my tiredness. phooey. maybe i've just sunk into slothiness and managed to convince myself i cannot study or do homework for i am feeling tired. haha as for time management, i guess i shouldnt be here. ah well. as for the wonderful day i'm having, 2 things to thank God for. 1)that He stopped the rain when it was time for me to go to sch
2)that my history teacher didnt get worked up over undone homework which i tried slaving over the night before and it gave me a mental block. which i slept off. har har.
sigh still cant remember what i was goign to say that made me sign in but oh well.